I have so many things to say, I'm really kind of bursting with words. I don't think they will all end up here, though.
Most readily on my mind, now, is REAL. Real people. I have known my share of people who are trying to pretend to be something. Wealthy is the main one. And why? What is the point of that? It's just a lot of making friends you can't keep up with, really. And I've hung out with the guy you are pretending to be, and you know what? He likes to keep things simple. So, you're not even getting it right. Another one is Young And Single. Okay, if you aren't single and you're trying to act like a single person....there's someone near by with a good reason to be pissed off. And youth...is not worth imitating. And then you get into a room full of truly common people who are all trying to act like they are young and single and wealthy and it just makes me want to...leave, mostly. There are better things out there.
Me. I am a real person. I like what I like, and I don't shop for my ideas in the recycle bin. Just because They like it, doesn't make it good. But don't get me wrong. I'm not antagonistic. I'm not going to avoid something because They approve of it. I'm going to decide for myself. Sometimes we will agree. Sometimes not.
Anyway, I got off track. I was going to talk about pretending to be something else. Usually I don't feel like I've been doing that, even subconsciously. But today...I was applying for jobs. I wrote my most aggressive cover letter to date. It feels...wrong. Like it was by someone else. I read it over the phone to my mom, and she loved it. I am not sure I'm pleased. The one thing I fear is that someone will hire me and then be sorry they did, so I try very hard to avoid mis-advertising. Well. I can't see this place calling me in, anyway. Maybe that's why I finally decided to send it anyway.
I've been a little off since my return from vacation. I have a sinus infection, but that doesn't really count for all of it. I lost something of great sentimental value, too. I think about it practically all the time. Very upsetting.
Abbie's dance recital is this coming Saturday. Today we had another T-ball AND dance night, but it is the last one. Dance will be over for the summer after the recital. I'm hoping the schedule will be a tiny bit easier at that point.
Boy, am I starting to be tired! I was going to tell you all about vacation, too. And my friends who are off to England for 6 months. And about Brother and the job hunt. And about the kids and how cute they've been and stuff.
Well...another time. Special hugs to my 3 friends who are expecting babies! Yay for good news. And hugs also to my 2 friends who got married this month. And even more hugs to the ones who I will be seeing be married later this summer! And a hug for Trish, just 'cause.
So...sleepy.
Good night.
awwww. thank you for the hugs!! we need them. i will email you soon and tell you all about it. as for the job you applied to, i can say with full confidence that any department would be very lucky to have you as an administrative assistant. i would love love love to have someone as competent as you are in that position.
ReplyDeleteI understand what you are saying about pretending to be something you aren't. this is particularly the case when applying for jobs. i've applied to a lot over the past year and have gotten a lot of rejections...well, all rejections. that's part of my current need for hugs. there are no jobs that are exactly what i do, so i have been applying for jobs that are close and tailoring my application to suit what they are looking for. sure, i can teach this class or that, and my research is broadly applicable to that area...but it's not 100% me...maybe that is why the rejections? unfortunately, it's also the gap in my CV; even if they can't say so, taking a year off for maternity hurt my competitiveness...
but whatever you do, don't give up. you have an awesome set of skills. You are a great people person. practicing answering interview questions before you interview (it really helps!). if they pass, then it truly isn't the right job for you. this is what i keep telling myself anyway. just try to hang in there and i will too. *hugs*